Wednesday, June 3, 2009

Four and a Half Down...

...Two and a Half weeks to go!
 
It's crazy to think I'm more than halfway through with my time here! You know in the cartoons, where the character takes off running on a rug or something, and it all piles up behind them without them moving forward an inch? That's what I feel like. I've already piled 4 1/2 weeks behind me, yet it feels like I haven't been here at all, and home is still so far away.
 
I'm having such an amazing experience here, but I'll be ready to come home when the time comes, there's so much to do with the company that will be way easier state-side. Plus, I get giddy when I think about going home. We moved into the house we're renting the day before I left, so I had no time to settle in. I'm so excited to settle into our house, to get to know our new ward, and to enjoy the summer in Provo! I've heard it's nothing like during the school year, and supposedly a blast!
 
The only thing that makes me want to stay here are the girls. They get out of school right when I leave, so I'll miss the summer playing and swimming with them. From what Denise has told me, they don't want me to go either. I've gotten so close to them, I really do feel like their adopted big sister. That's what I was hoping for when I came. It has been such a blessing. I never really got to do the whole big sister thing, but Denise said she would have never guessed that I haven't had a ton of experience with kids; that I'm a natural. And it's something I kind of needed to hear.
 
I've had my own insecurities about how I would be with kids. I'm not always the most patient person ever, especially when kids are bratty or spoiled (luckily the girls aren't, at all). I've always been the youngest, and I was never one of those laurel baby mongers at church. I've been so blessed here though, to have my insecurities dealings with kids resolved. I've learned that patience comes right when you think you're at your wits end, and that no matter how frustrated you may get, it doesn't last more than two seconds before they are doing something that is just melting your heart.
 
I truly do love these girls. Each one is so different. They each have a different personality, a different set of strengths, and a different set of fears. It's been such an experience getting to know each one of them. I've been able to relate to each of them in a different way. I really have been able to be the big sister. I'm gonna miss them when I'm home... they've already added me to their gmails though, and have made me promise to call them on skype as often as possible, and have promised they'll visit whenever they come back to the states.
 
It's just an amazing thing to think about, one that I'm so grateful for. I came here for an internship. Not only did I get that, but I'll be leaving with a company in tow, life changing lessons, and lifelong relationships.
 
Overwhelmingly grateful is an understatement...

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